parenting

one of the most challenging aspects of parenting is self-preservation.

make love, a voice whispers. make love to yourself, you fool. funny because i've spent years of my life copulating, fucking, sucking. unifying myself with another calling it "love making."

but i hadn't made love until i became a mother. now, i am shedding my life's blood and infusing this beautiful creature with every ounce of red and purple pumping. it is alchemy. the ability to give and give yet somehow remain standing and hugging this child closer than i did the day before. LOVE MAKING.

how is this possible? well, the whisper says, hey you, go fuck yourself. with meditation, a bukowski poem, a cup of tea, and that hand of yours. it's just that simple. and hard. to come by as a parent. now if you will excuse me, i must go make this love inside. tomorrow is calling and her name is MIRABELLE.

grocery list

i procured a man of groceries

for whom i shopped for smiles

but, i've known no man of produce

that can fill this cart of guile

until i reach the top shelf

i'll negate your shiny aisle.

taxed

a third of all profits

goes to taxes

so i'm drinking my 401k

straight from the bottle

investing in stocks

of fresh shasta daisies

and there's no way

i'm gonna go bankrupt

because i already did.

heartbeat

i took a train to the heartland

and found a man who's pulse was fast.

he grabbed my hand and told me to look up

so i did and haven't been down since.

relationship

man woman

under pant

too damn tight

elastic between our

mantras tonight

we sought

simple greatness

amidst oversight

and then

we done

jeff @ whole foods

a boy appeared

between

the register and the line

his smile

painted faces

and i announced a "hi"

youth clean and

shaven

hebe drinks her wine

men are their

greatest

between 20 and a five.

call me.

the bean can

in settling for bed

i opened the cupboard

for a cookie or two

but no treats were found

only a can of

great northern beans

how much protein

is in a serving of beans?

7 grams. but get this,

on the can itself was the

vegetarian food pyramid

it was quite unlike anything

i had ever seen

and it read

eat your beans

drink your booze

all in good health

no joke.

go peep the pyramid

and let's go vegetarian tonight.